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I awake to another day,
Still feeling angry and alone.
I look at myself in dismay;
My purpose in life, still unknown!
Full of old hurts and resentment,
I wondered where I went wrong.
Will I ever find contentment?
In this world, I don't belong.
Not one person can I trust,
Only of self are they aware.
I feel for them utter disgust,
For no one else do they care!
I cry myself to sleep again,
Only to have a dream;
Where trying to ease my pain,
I walk along a stream.
There beyond, a Man sits crying.
He seems to be calling me.
Slowly, I walk to Him sighing;
Another case of self-
But He wasn't seeking comfort;
He was comforting me instead.
It seems He knew of my hurt;
"You must forgive them." He said.
If He knew what I'd been through,
He wouldn't speak so readily!
I turned and silently withdrew;
I walked away angrily!
Who is this Man with no insight?
Where did He come from anyway?
Telling me I'm not doing right!
Why doesn't He just go away!
Coming from behind me,
He said He understood;
And sitting me by a tree,
Told me all that He withstood.
The stories He told were shocking -
All the abuse and pain He had.
He endured people's mocking,
Ever since He was a lad.
He'd been beaten and tortured;
Scarred were His hands and face.
And verbal abuse He endured;
He lived His life in disgrace.
Not one person did He judge,
Even after a life of pain.
His life He didn't begrudge;
So who am I to complain?
Filled with compassion and tears,
I was overwhelmed with shame.
I looked back at all those years,
Where I was busy laying blame.
I didn't really have it rough.
It was all in my head.
I just didn't love enough.
It was my attitude instead!
I realized then that I was wrong.
Not man, but sin should I hate.
This Man had known it all along,
And came to set me straight.
Then my dream became a nightmare,
And I froze where I stood!
For a beast came out of nowhere,
To devour me if he could.
I fell from a shove,
But I looked up to see -
That because of this Man's love,
He had given His life for me.
Then I awoke with such a start!
But the Man was still with me;
For I felt His love in my heart.
Then I realized -
I wasn't angry anymore,
Nor resentful or bitter.
I wasn't at all like before;
I was a brand new creature!
Instead I was filled with pity.
My hatred I had sacrificed.
For I had found serenity.
In the love of Jesus Christ!
AWAKENING
By Julie A. Dawes